Wednesday, October 12, 2011

40

I have absent from the blog world.
I am still reading tho!
I got a email from one of my favorite bloggers that I really considered a friend
after my last post
The email went into how ungrateful I am & how could I complain about being sick after wanting this for so long
Let me first go on by saying
I am not sick, like "oh I puked this morning..
oh I feel nauseous"
my ass if puking 40+ times a day
I want you to go puke 40 xs a day 
& not feel entitled to vent a little on the one place you can actually vent
in the pros of this, YES yall i know this means my  baby is growing I get that
but when you are throwing up chunks of acid, & dry-heaving
all the while trying to take care of a 10-month old, babysitting & running your business 
it gets hard
really hard
when i was sick & much more sick with kennedy I could just stay in bed; but i can't.

I don't know why, & trust me this past week I have begged & bawled to god & my husband
why does this have to be SO HARD for me. this one aspect of my life that I want so bad has to be hard, when it seems like every other woman/teenage can get pregnant & have this easy pregnancy but me..no.
I want to be able to get pregnant & be happy & excited. instead of being scared & having to worry 24/7.

But...I learned that i was getting no where with that whoa-is-me sob story about myself, & brandon reminded me how much more grateful it makes us & so thankful.

He is right.. but dang it I just want to complain for a second.
Excuse me while i go barf.

{more pleasant post coming}


12 comments:

  1. I got my first "hot" comment on a cloth diapers post...and I'm not one to deal with controversy. Hang in there, Tara. Bitch, complain, do whatever you gotta do - you're allowed! If people can't realize that you can be GRATEFUL and be SICK at the same time...then they just truly have no clue. You shouldn't ever be made to feel guilty about venting about how awful you feel in an outlet you created to do the same. I have friends that have been through IVF who "feel guilty" for venting/complaining about their pregnancies because they should feel grateful and blessed for every time they puke or have an awful symptom just BECAUSE they are pregnant. I'm sorry, but no one "asks" to be hyperemesis-puke-your-guts-out-sick with any kind of pregnancy.

    I hope you feel real better soon. This really shows who your true friends are, doesn't it. Chin up, friend! :)

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  2. Don't sweat them.

    You can vent without being ungrateful. I sure didn't get that impression.

    I hope you feel better soon!

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  3. I am usually a silent reader, but thought I would say just one thing.......

    IT IS YOUR BLOG. IF YOU WANNA F'N COMPLAIN, DO SO... and if they don't wanna read it, DON'T. That is why we have our own Blogs.

    Chin up girl, I hope it gets better, and congratulations! (on the little bean, not the gut hurling)

    Heather

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  4. You can vent, complain, whine, etc. here all you want. That's what this blog is for, right?!
    Feel better soon!

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  5. I say you complain all you want! I'm 8 weeks pregnant with my second and my daughter will be 1 on Friday. I totally understand how tough it is. I'm barfing pretty much all the time and its miserable. I'm so happy for you and hope that the sickness will pass and that you'll end up with another beautiful, healthy baby.

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  6. ummmm...it's your blog...if you want to write a post about how sick you are during this pregnancy - then go for it. I for one wanted to capture everything about my pregnancy, and that would include getting sick (although I was lucky and didn't). It bothers me that people are so mean when it comes to blogging - if they don't like what yuou have to say, they don't have to keep reading. I didn't think that post came across as ungrateful, just telling what's been going on.

    I hope you feel better soon.
    and continue to write about whateer you want - it's YOUR blog :)

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  7. Oh girl, this may sound strange, but I am so very excited to see you are still getting sick! As long as you are, little bean is still growing, and that, as you know (better than anyone) is awesome! Not that I want you to feel bad, that part sucks for sure! Lefty was 10 months old when I was puking with Boo, so I know it is draining. Take advantage of every good moment to love on Kennedy and keep yourself strong. Pulling for you guys to be a family of four :-)

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  8. Don't let ignorant people get you down. You are a rock star and you'll be okay! Vomiting sucks... But you're pregnant! :).

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  9. The nerve of some ppl to call someone else ungrateful and to say they complain so much, ugh!! I agree with all the other ladies above. It's YOUR blog not theirs! Grr! I do hope that this puking settles down for you :( I HATED feeling nauseous, I could just imagine puking all freakin day :( Keep your head up and stay strong ;)

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  10. I've yet to experience pregnancy but I read somewhere (on a blog) where someone compared the woman's body as a walking symbol of Christ. It made me think of a mother's love...how a mother willingly sacrifices her physical health and even mental health, for the health and well-being of their child. I thought it was a beautiful symbol. Keep on keepin' on, girl...it'll be worth it in the end!

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  11. P.S. I wish I could "like" all the comments above mine!

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  12. congrats on your second pregnancy!!! how exciting!! we'll be thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers!! we know all to well the ins and outs of morning sickness, as I had it all 9 months with my daughter hahah!!! Congrats and I pray it subsides very quickly!!

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shucks, thanks the comment!
i looove hearing from you!
-tara :)

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