Wednesday, October 6, 2010

ohhhh goodness.

Lets catch you guys up, not last Sunday but the Sunday before, Brandon left to go fishing and litterly 20 minutes later I was having all this pressure and just needed to push, a lot of pressure. So we went to L&D, like the dr said to. They go to check my cervix, she pulls out her hand and it is covered in blood. My automatic thought, from everything I have known with my miscarriages, is something horrible and my baby is dying. I FREAK! and she asked if I have had my bloddy show yet, I reply no, & she tells me well now you have. My cervix is dilated a fingertip (1 cm) but which I didn't know there is two layers to a cervix and the part that is dilated in just the outter, & not the inner. But she said once that happens it pretty much the beginning of it dilating completely. When i was hooked up to be monitors, the nurse kept coming in & asking me about my contractions & I said I had only had one since I was there, & she looked at me funny and said I had been contracting the whole time (apparently I have become so used to it I dont notice the real little ones after four FLIPPIN weeks) anyway, I got a shot of breathane to stop the contractions and was monitored for a few hours.

I had an appt on Thursday, Dr said if he knew I was going to come in this week he would have told me not to because he didn't want to check me again because I was checked Sunday & checking again so close would stir up the membranes putting me into full-blown labor. SO, I go in next week, he wants to do my beta strep now instead of 36 weeks since delivery will be before then, but at this point I don't even feel like it going to happen anymore, & I just want her to come. I know selfish, as she deserves to go full-term but I am so EXHAUSTED. The constant contractions leave me so worn out, & in so much pain. The only thing that relives the pain is walking, which makes me have more contractions. I can never win. I have not complained my whole pregnancy, but now I'm freakin complaining. This is my 5th week of premature labor, & if one more women tells me "this is nothing, stop being a wimp, just wait for the real ones then you can say you are in pain" SHUT THE &#*$*U)(#$* up! You go thru 4-6 contractions a hour for 5 weeks and then call me a whimp, k thanks. :)

OK, I'm done now! I feel much better! :) I will update on my appt next week as soon as possible!

2 comments:

  1. I'm so glad you're OK and the baby is doing well too! She'll be here before you know it! In the meantime, try to treasure the last few moments of her wiggling around inside - as exhausting as it may be! :)

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  2. Wow! I'm SO sorry that people are making those stupid comments, that is so irritating.

    I'm really hoping she stays put for awhile longer. And that your contractions stop. You're one strong Mama to be experiencing contractions for FIVE WEEKS!

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-tara :)

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