Monday, September 12, 2011

my birthday weekend!{huge news}

Saturday
Kennedy started walking EVERYWHERE.
like could not stop her!
Sunday she wasnt as into it, would walk & crawl combo!



We went out to eat for seafood, which wasn't even good; BOO!
& I missed a dose of meds for kennedy was she was beyond cranky so I ended up not even finishing..not that i wanted too. & took her out in the car & waited for Brandon
before we went out to eat!
Then SUNDAY
i got breakfast in bed
& went over to my moms
{ i again want to say that I do not share my blog on my personal FB ect, if I know you in my personal everyday life, i am not only asking.. I am begging..& pleadingthat you not share what you read here today}
I have been having alot of pain in my abdomen.. & as of the last two days gotten really swollen, I showed my mom & she has noticed it too & we were thinking it maybe another cyst..a  really big one; or a big one that has burst. There was no way I was pregnant, I stopped clomid 2 cycles ago.. & AF was here on August 13th I did test after just because i felt SO nauseous but that ended up being the flu that Brandon also go as well, it was negative {digital}/
I needed to get to the dr asap, because something just wasn't right.

well, we decided to go to walmart & pick up a test. I said i really didn't want to...there was no point..I didn't want another negative, even though we weren't even trying..

first two were during the evening of yesterday.. the second with the tiniest sample. & the last from this morning!
go on..freak out.. I AM!
god works in SUCH mysterious ways!
August was the last month to try I have a post I was going to post this week about the end of this journey.
I stopped charting..we stopped trying
we actually were looking into adoption which was part of that post.
the only people that know are Brandon, Kennedy & my parents only because I am going to need them for support if anything goes wrong, a friend & now all of you.
We are not telling anyone til 20 weeks in fear of miscarriage or early delivery due to my incompetent cervix.
But i wanted to write down my thoughts, document this; & ultimately... get support. I am trying so hard to stay positive; but this could turn out bad...really bad. & the blogger community is great & i hope in any way this miracle of a pregnancy takes us; I know yall will be here to support!

Here is what is going down
-waiting for the dr to call me back as I type to get my BETA done TODAY.
-ultra sound, possible progesterone shots again  to help me no miscarry like first 2 pregnancies {i only had one with kennedy}
-find out why the crap my line is so dark this early...was my last AF a fluke? or twins?
-talk about cerclage & our options
-wait for BETA results, then have follow up in 48 hrs to see if numbers are rising!

what a birthday present right?
prayers, & encouragement is needed & wanted!

23 comments:

  1. I AM SO EXCITED {and happy!} FOR YOU! Hooray! God is good! :)

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  2. THIS IS SO AMAZING! I am beyond thrilled and seriously either the bleeding last month was just spotting or you're having multiples... 4wk tests don't look like that. CONGRATULATIONS TARA!

    Your hair looks fantastic in the before dinner pic and I LOVE the pic with daddy and Kennedy with the pregnancy test :D

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  3. Congrats!! Thinking and praying for you and the little bean. Such exciting news. God is good!!!

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  4. Congrats! You'll definitely be in my prayers.

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  5. Thinking and praying for you during this time! God works in mysterious ways !

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  6. Ahhhh I am so excited for you & your little family! Boy does God work in mysterious ways! I will be sending prayers your way on the daily!

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  7. wow that's awesome!! Congratulations!!

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  8. Oh my God, I'm so happy for you!! What an amazing blessing. I'll be praying for you!!

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  9. OH my word Tara!!!!!! How amazing and beautiful this is!!!! I am so happy for you two! Just put it all in Gods hands and it will all be ok! You have my support 100%!!!!

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  10. Aw Tara i am SO SO SOOOO happy for you. Words can't describe. Big congrats mama!

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  11. Congrats! This is so exciting and I am beyond happy for you! I will keep you in my prayers throughout your pregnancy. Again, congrats!

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  12. Praying for you, Tara! What a blessing, congratulations!!

    Sarah
    Nurse Loves Farmer

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  13. Oh my gosh!!! SO excited for you three! :-) Keep us posted!

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  14. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
    I totally did that out loud and my boyfriend now thinks I'm nuts!
    But still EEEEEE!
    I am so happy for you am I tearing up. This is amazing and awesome and I am so excited for you guys!
    EEK!

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  15. Yay!! I am SO EXCITED for you. Tara you are in my prayers. Praying that things turn out great! Anxiously waiting for your beta results! =)you Congrats Momma to be!

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  16. Congrats! That is so awesome...I am so happy for you and your family! Just think positive and try not to worry too much and enjoy being pregnant! WooHoo!

    and yay for Kennedy WALKING!

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  17. I found you through Jess's blog (Here Comes the Sun). I wanted to comment because my youngest was born on Nov 16, 2010 too!

    Congrats to you! Praying for an uneventful pregnancy for you! I have had a second trimester miscarriage and I know how scary subsequent pregnancies can be. (((Hugs)))

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  18. Oh my goodness!! So, so excited and extremely happy for you!!! Keeping everything crossed and sending lots of positive thoughts. Will be anxiously waiting an update. xx

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  19. OH MY GOSH!!! Congratulations! A total God-thing. This is such great news, I am so happy for you and your budding family. :)

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  20. This is AWESOME news. SOOO excited for you and your family!!!

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  21. Oh wow!! What wonderful news!!!! congrats and praying everything goes well :)

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shucks, thanks the comment!
i looove hearing from you!
-tara :)

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