Saturday, April 3, 2010

i didn't know

my own stregnth. 
yesterday I got my second quants done.Then, late last night I started bleeding. I called the doctor, & he told me he was sorry but I was miscarring. I cried, & cried. I was done. I was never doing to get pregnant agian I could not bare the pain. I finally fell asleep from exhaustion emotionally & then this afternoon, my cell phone rang, it was the hosptial I thought what now? It was my Dr, my number sky rocketed, & my bleeding was just from over doing it (helllooo bed rest) & they he said it to me "I am so happy to finally tell you, you are pregnant! lets take this one to term" I couldn't belive it after all that pain the night before, today I can say I AM PREGANT! Although, I'm not very confident in saying it!

My second ultra sound is this Thursday (have I mentioned that I love this new Dr, does free ultrasounds??).
& I wanted to thank all of you for being there for me even if it was send "baby dust" or such encouraging words, all of your crossed fingers are worked!!

I wanted to share with you one of my favortie songs, I listened to it agian today & it had a whole new meaning here are the lyrics:

Lost touch with my soul
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream,
Thought it would be the end of me
I thought I’d never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life
My way out of the dark
Found all that I need
Here inside of me
I thought I’d never find my way
I thought I’d never lift that weight
I thought I would break

There were so many times I
Wondered how I’d get through the night I
Thought took all I could take
Its by Whitney Houston. Hopefully you enjoy the song to. 
Everyone had a wonderful Easter!!
Hoppy Easter! (haha get it?)

x's&oh's

7 comments:

  1. How scary! I'm so sorry you had to go through that! It certainly made sense why you would assume the worst.

    What fantastic news that your numbers look great and that things are promising!

    Enjoy your weekend!

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  2. Congratulations on the fantastic news!!! I am so happy for you and your family and can't wait to see the pictures of your little bean!!!

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  3. I have missed out a lot this week! hopefully i get back to myself sorry ive been distant.!
    I am soooo happy & excited for you & i will keep praying & being positive for you guys!
    You deserve this!

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  4. That is strength. I'm so sorry that this scare happened to you. Hopefully you're keeping those feet up and that little one continues to grow in there. Extra sticky baby dust!! Hugs!

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  5. That is amazing! I hope this sticks and s/he makes it to full term without any issues! Congrats! Sending lots of baby dust and positive thoughts.

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  6. Sending you lots of ((Hugs)). Glad you heard some good news. Think......Sticky Bean.....Sticky Bean!!!

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  7. I saw your post on WTE and thats how I found your blog. Just letting you know that I have been thinking about you and praying your little one stays healthy. I have been where you WERE and its such a rough road. After 4 years of infertility treatments & pursuing adoption, I popped up pregnant without any intervention. Shes a happy chubby 3 month old now :) Looking forward to reading about this pregnancy going to term with a beautiful baby as the reward.

    ~Tara (yep, Im a tara too)

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shucks, thanks the comment!
i looove hearing from you!
-tara :)

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